Waking Up to Spiritual Alignment
This morning, I woke up with a familiar tightness in my chest—a creeping anxiety whispering that I’m behind. Behind on my soul-aligned intentions, behind on the life I imagine for myself, behind on simply being who I want to be. There’s a part of me that wants to bulldoze through this feeling, to crush goals and push forward with the unrelenting force of will. That part of me is familiar, reliable even. But I’ve come to understand that it’s not the way forward—at least not now.
One of my intentions lately has been to redevelop my spiritual practices, a commitment that has already begun to shift things in my life. But as with anything, I’ve noticed how quickly my mental self—the taskmaster of my ego—tries to take over. The moment I build any momentum, my mind swoops in, eager to check spirituality off the list like any other accomplishment. It takes something sacred and reduces it to another box to tick, another achievement to file away. And then, before I know it, it’s in the rearview mirror, no longer present, no longer alive.
But spirituality doesn’t work like that. The power of spiritual practice isn’t in completing it; it’s in being with it. It’s not about reaching some final destination but about weaving it into the fabric of your everyday existence. It’s about letting it become a core operating system, an internal compass steering you with compassion, curiosity, and grace. And for me, that means shifting away from the part of myself that thrives on momentum, accomplishment, and efficiency—the parts that have long dominated my internal system.
The Disconnect: Efficiency Over Connection
It’s my natural tendency to prioritize efficiency and practicality. I push forward, checking off tasks, seeking progress, and chasing results. For years, that approach served me well in many areas of my life. But when it comes to spirituality, it’s a dead end. Spiritual practices can’t be measured on a scale of productivity. They aren’t something you “complete” or conquer. They are something you merge with, something you allow to flow through you and shape your entire way of being.
When I treat spirituality like just another task, I disconnect from its essence. I push it aside in favor of what feels more tangible, more actionable. But this way of being doesn’t serve my future self. It creates anxiety in my present and blocks my ability to create the aligned, soulful outcomes I desire.
Merging Spirituality with the Everyday
Spirituality isn’t something I can compartmentalize. It’s not something to be picked up and put down at will. To truly embody it, I need to let it permeate every aspect of my life—my thoughts, my actions, my decisions. I need to wear it, live it, breathe it. Only then can it become the central force steering me toward alignment, rather than something I squeeze into the margins of my day.
When I’m connected to my spiritual practice, I’m connected to myself. To my higher self, my inner child, even my ego—but not in a way that lets the ego dominate. Instead, I allow all these parts of me to coexist in harmony, to guide me with clarity and compassion. This connection shifts everything. It’s what led me to reexamine my business structures recently when I realized I was setting myself up for a future of overwork and depletion. My old way of operating—driven by efficiency and external validation—was blocking me from creating the life I truly desired.
The Cost of Disconnection
When we let our egos run the show, we sever our connection to our true selves. And when we’re disconnected from ourselves, we block our ability to manifest the life we want. Manifestation doesn’t come from force or willpower alone; it comes from alignment. It comes from being in tune with your desires, your purpose, and the quiet guidance of your soul.
For me, reconnecting with my spiritual practice has been an exercise in surrender. It’s about allowing myself to be guided, rather than always trying to control the outcome. It’s about seeing my spiritual practice not as a tool for achieving my goals but as the foundation for how I live my life. When I operate from that space, everything shifts—my energy, my mindset, my ability to create and receive.
Moving Forward
This journey isn’t about perfection. It’s about presence. It’s about showing up for myself every day, even when it feels uncomfortable or inconvenient. It’s about recognizing when I’ve slipped back into old patterns and gently bringing myself back to center. And most importantly, it’s about trusting that this work—this daily practice of connection—isn’t a detour. It’s the path.
If you’ve been feeling stuck, anxious, or disconnected, I invite you to consider this: Where are you letting efficiency override connection? Where are you pushing instead of aligning? And what would it look like to bring your spirituality into every moment of your day—not as something to accomplish but as something to embody?
The answers aren’t always easy. But they’re always worth seeking. And the journey of finding them might just be the most transformative work we can do.